“Tough times don’t last, tough people do”
About a month ago, I graduated college with my bachelor’s degree in Human Development. I was so eager for this moment and so anxious to graduate. Though, shortly after graduating college I ran into this brick wall of what I like to call “post-grad life crisis.” I’m in what feels like a never-ending process of figuring out what my future entails and trying to get my foot in the door just about anywhere. I have this strong aching desire to continuously grow. I think it might have a little to do with the fact that I’m only 4 foot 8 inches tall and growing has always been highly desired. So while I can no longer grow physically, I constantly strive to grow mentally.
One of the ways I achieve this is through setting goals for myself. One of my goals has been to move to another city upon graduation. I’m one of those people who loves to be out of their comfort zone and I believe that living outside my comfort zone is what I need to thrive. It’s like that quote…”If we were meant to stay in one place, we’d have roots instead of feet.” So, with this goal I have been applying to many different jobs in Los Angeles for the past several months. I lost count but if I had to estimate I would say I’ve applied to just about 200 jobs if not more since February. I’ve applied to my dream jobs interning at Disney, Nickelodeon, and other major networks to posting resumes as an office assistant. You would think my hard work would have landed me a job by now but instead, I’ve been hit with rejection letters and no responses. It has been an extremely tough time for me as I exert so much energy and effort to accomplish this goal. It’s caused me to reevaluate myself and question my self-esteem. I feel like I have a good amount of quality experience up my sleeve plus a college degree but this tough time has caused me to question if that’s even enough. Not to mention the continuous pressure of the inevitable “congratulations on getting a degree, now what are you going to do?” question I receive from everyone I come across.
It’s been an extremely tough time trying to figure out what I’m going to pursue and trying to find a full-time job to be able to support my goal. I’m torn between just wanting to get my foot in the door to build up my experience and jumping into my forever career. It’s been a constant battle and a never ending process. What I often fail to realize and remind myself is that it’s okay to not know what the future entails. It’s okay to be rejected. It’s okay to feel distressed. It’s okay to not have it all figured out. I wish I could end this blog by telling you all that I have finally landed a job but I haven’t. But that’s okay because “tough times don’t last, tough people do.” I know I’m tough and I know that this tough time won’t last. This is only the beginning and I plan to continue to use every ounce of energy I have to continue searching, applying, and working towards my goal. I will continue to keep moving forward with my head held high because we don’t have to always have everything figured out. We all go through our struggles and hardships but it’s in those times that we grow the most. As long as we push forth and make life count, everything will work out just fine.